Season's Greetings and Growing Imagination

I apologize for my recent absence in the last few weeks. I have been really trying to focus on getting back in to school, and getting financial aid for that. That however doesn't mean that I have forgotten about you, my dear readers. I have missed you, and missed telling you about my toddler's antics. Her imagination seems to be growing by the second. It's hard to keep up with. Sometimes I think she is being serious when she is pretending, and sometimes I think she is pretending when she is really being serious. This is has gotten me in trouble with her several times already. And then there are the times when she is purposefully trying to trick me up, and make me look silly. At which point she starts laughing and at me and calls me silly mommy. She's a regular comedian. I swear. Haha. 

I can't wait until she pulls this on her father, who by the way says he will be here for Christmas. I guess we will just have to wait and see. I still don't trust him. But my little girl is excited about seeing him, so like I said, we'll just have to see how things go. 

Speaking of Christmas: I just finished making our Christmas greeting card. It is so much cheaper to design them myself, and then just have them printed for the regular price of any other 4x6 photo. A friend is picking them up for me later on today, I can't wait for them to get here. For those of you who read this and are personal friends of mine, email me with your address so I can send one to your family!! 

I hope everyone's fall/winter/holiday season is going well! Also I'm curious what my next topic should be more geared towards? My usual of parenting, or should it be about the holidays? What would you like to have a discussion about? Leave me a comment, twitter me, facebook me and let me know!!

Going back to school? #nervous

Yes, it's been awhile since I have updated my blog regularly. I have to admit that I have been super busy and distracted with my plans to head back to school. Yup that's right single working mommy turned single working college student mommy. Haha... I think I may be in for a rough journey but this is sometihing that I've ALWAYS wanted to do. I am so super duper excited. And the best part?? I will be majoring in Marketing so I'm sure the more experience I get, the better my blog will be!!! I hope at least. This is not one of those things that I start and then decide after awhile that I just don't feel like doing it anymore. Because finishing a degree will ensure a better job, and ensure a better life for my daughter. But I also promise that I will continue to update my blog with fun topics about my crazy toddler, parenting, and surviving. Speaking of, my daughter as with all children, is growing up way too fast. I wish she wouldn't learn and grow so fast. I miss the little baby girl she used to be when she was still crawling and babbling. But now she is a toddler. Talking full sentences, and she won't stop asking questions, Haha. And she now runs faster than I do, she chases circles around her aging mother. I think my favorite part right now is that she doesn't always pronounce things right, so they sound funny. And she makes up her own words sometimes. Spaghetti is sketti. Popcicle is posikle. She's hilarious.
So my curious question to you is what is your favorite time? Crawling? Walking? Talking? etc. 

I hate being so indecisive...

I realize that it's been awhile since I have just written a plain blog, no contest/giveaway, challenge, blog hop stuff, just me, my brain and the keyboard. I feel like I am at a cross roads right now in my life. I know I don't talk much about Katy's father, and that's cause he hasn't really been around much. In my opinion, he's kind of a deadbeat, but it's hard not to still care for someone who is the father of your child. Well we haven't heard a peep from him in about four months. Which is pretty typical. But I had tried calling him a couple of times to ask him to talk to Katy because she's finally at an age where she recognizes who her father is, and she asks to talk to him. But he never answered. Up until yesterday. He called and talked to Katy for about half an hour. Asked her how she was doing. All sorts of stuff. She absolutely loved it. But I'm having a hard time with him calling only when it's convenient for him. He only calls every once in awhile. So I guess I kinda have to make a decision here. Do I keep letting things go the way they always do, him calling every once in awhile? (He has only seen her twice in her life). Or do I tell him to stop calling because it confuses her? All I want to do is raise a happy, healthy, normal, and balanced girl. But I am not sure what to do on this one. I've asked several people, and I've prayed, but I don't feel like I've really come up with an answer. Which is really frustrating me. But it is ultimately my decision, which doesn't work well for me because I am very indecisive. I hate that about myself. Anyway, that's all for now. So until next time, dear readers.

-Sicily

Beautiful Creation

I'm not much of a poetry writer, but I wrote this poem about a year ago, and it is by far my favorite.

Beautiful Creation

I thought I was broken, tumbling
down, down through the dark abyss
to the fiery depths and beyond
Pieces of me are shattered,
tattered and broken, drifting apart
I can't make up my mind
whether or not to forgive him
but I know either way
that the substance my heart
my heart and soul is made of
is stronger, it's resiliency, consistency
much more than he will ever be
I have embraced, celebrated, loved
my fate, my destiny
This alone is the reason
My reason for getting out of bed
every morning instead of pulling 
pulling the covers over my shameful face
Covering and hiding
I am alive for one reason
One reason only
This beautiful creation
This beautiful daughter


(I wrote this myself, and therefore reserve rights to it)

-Sicily